This is a strange blog entry for me...actually it might be strange for anyone....

If you don't care about a back story skip to paragraph 3))But first you should know that FFXI is the first MMO I ever played

So a few days ago I logged into FFXI Gil a game I haven't played in a long while((even tho I'm still subscribed to it(and I mean a long timelike a year(thats alittle more then 120 dollars of wasted money))) i then created a new character((because when I started FFXI I used the name Ghostleader and I like the name Altrus more and for some reason I get hung up on names in MMOs))an Elvaan because I didn;t want to be short((tarataru)),a woman((mithra)),a gorilla mouse thing((Galka)), or human((hume)) and because the Elvaan have a good tan....

I made it a monk((because I haven't before)), and started in San d'Oria((because Bastok is a wasteland, and Windurst is to...well I just don't like it)) plus San d'Oria rules...

After I start leveling my character i get to lvl 5 and am running across a small stream and the Ronfaure forest music starts playing and I became sad...its like i was remembering what it was like when I first played the game and I was sad...just real depression, it felt like i could cry...and I'm an eternally happy person, most guys say there to tough and can't cry well I really can't cry I'm just to happy of a person insanly happy actually the only times I can remember crying is when my grandfather died and that scene in The Pursiut of Happyness((really depressing movie)).....but I was sad and I can't explain why I was sad!!!

Oh Yes and by the way if anyone ever asked me I'd say FFXI Gil had the best graphics of any MMO, not the most advance but they were really artistic((I liked it))

I also really want to start playing this game again...even tho it makes me sad...